seeking first the kingdom of God...
i've been thinking about what that means.
and if i'm honest, i realize that there are a lot of things i tend to choose over my Father's dream for this world and His desires for my life.
when i have a decision to make, what takes priority?
what comes first?
focusing on what i accomplish rather than who i am.
what i know over who i know.
achieving/earning more over giving more away.
talent over surrender.
reputation over integrity.
flattery over honesty.
peace over discipline.
comfort over growth.
greatness over humility.
independence over intimacy.
memory over grace.
safety over love.
i noticed a few things when i looked back over this list (which keeps growing as i continue thinking about it).
first...
the two options i feel like i must choose between are very rarely obvious opposites.
choosing beween love and hate - or even love and apathy depending on how you look at it - isn't usually a decision i struggle to make. but choosing between love and safety...
then...
it's not as simple as 'good' vs. 'bad'
comfort is good. growth is good.
but i've learned that i rarely get both and choosing comfort over growth...leads to decay.
finally...
your list could look completely different from mine.
and for that reason, it's probably worth making your own.
and at the end of all this thinking, i have one more to add to my list....
right over relationship.
the temptation to think the right things, say the right things, write the right things.....to be right and yet completely miss the whole point: a life-giving relationship with my Father.
