before

He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake.
1 Peter 1:20

so...Father chose Christ to die for us because He knew He had to...
and then He created us anyway.
i wonder if God was always three? or if He became three when He decided to go beyond Himself and create the universe. i wonder if He saw the whole story unfold, realized there would need to be a judge, a sacrifice and a counselor and realized that He would need to be all three.
and when He dreamed of creation and realized that He would die for it,
i wonder if He hesitated.

i want to be known for love. not for loneliness.

i constantly face the incredible temptation to choose independence.
i'm actually tempted to choose loneliness.
because i can look ahead. and i see the potential for failure and heartbreak...
and it makes me hesitate.
it makes me think twice about really giving my heart to anyone or anything.

and that amazes me about Him.
and totally humiliates me.
how small are my fears and my suspicions compared to His certainties!
they are only a fraction of what He knew He would feel and only a fraction of the sacrifice He chose to make before He even spoke a word...
and yet Love could not be stopped.

He chose Love over loneliness, and paid for it with His life.
He is Love, and definitely not lonely.